My life has changed in a very dramatic way over the last two months; it’s had many ups and downs, with tears, and laughs along the way. I have managed to do things I never thought possible I have had to manage my personal frustrations with daily life on top of parenting my three small children. Here’s my diary as a mommy of three.

I took a break from blogging because I felt I wasn’t in a “successful” or even a positive place. I suffered from a slight case of the baby blues after I had my third baby. Since I didn’t have it with my other two pregnancies, I really did not know what was wrong with me. I would cry most of the day, and often times just couldn’t think without putting myself down in the process. I would pray to God to help me because I felt so helpless. I loved my new baby and I felt I couldn’t bond with him because I had two little ones who needed me. I also had him three weeks early (four days before the 37 gestational weeks); I had nothing prepared for his arrival. I didn’t have the chance to set up, wash his clothes, or even get his car seat ready. Everything felt so rushed and I felt like an awful mother. My heart went out to my other two kids who had to endure my short temper and frustrations. I felt like the walls were closing in on me and there wasn’t anything I could do about it.

Time went on and I began to feel like myself again. We are all adjusting and getting used to one another. It’s been a difficult process and of course I still have my chaotic days but things are progressing in a good way.

I want to encourage moms through my experiences in my daily walk as a parent and although I still don’t have it all figured out, but I am working on it to the best to my ability. The baby blues is a real case of depression. There are mild and severe cases of it. If you feel this way, remember you’re not alone. This is very common among women, mostly new moms but in this case it happened to me as a third timer.

 

After having my third son Samuel, I wanted to come home and get right back into the groove of things. I thought, “hey I’m feeling good, let me just get everything on track” I was wrong. This has been my toughest job yet as a mom. All three of my kids are home with me all day long. It’s been exhausting and has taken me longer than I expected to get back on my feet.

Not only am I exclusively breastfeeding, I needed to find a way to give all three kids their personal attention from me. It started to get overwhelming. My kids are truly great kids they just require most of my attention (usually when I sit down to feed the baby).

My husband is always telling me to reach out for help when I need to rest. My “help” list is very limited and sometimes (like many moms) I feel I can do everything on my own. Although for the most part this is true, sometimes we need a little help or even a little break from the daily routine. He is right. It’s just not as easy as it seems. Sometimes he would tell me that I need to be a leader and take charge, and to be honest I am having a tough time doing that. I feel my kids run over me sometimes, especially my Isaac.

Right now one of the most important goals for me is getting my kids and house in order. I still feel like I am all over the place. My oldest son Isaac will be 5 in December and in my opinion is nowhere near ready for Kindergarten next year.   That topic I will save for my next post. I just want to feel confident in what I am doing as a full time stay at home mom. I also want to be happy and proud of my work. I’m still a work in progress and I believe that with the right attitude and positive thinking anything is possible.

I will continue to post updates on my facebook page so keep an eye out for that. Thanks for stopping in; let’s keep striving for mommy success!

 

 

XOXO,

Reina